Look up to the sky, there is an Angle Theresa smiling to you....
Our dearest friend was passed away at 2 AM this morning. I am in a deep sorrow to lose her, but I am happy for her release from the pain.
Love,
Van 01/23/2007
我們的好友---黃瓊芳在今天凌晨兩點時刻與世長辭了。 她終於擺脫了這些年來一直與癌魔搏鬥的痛苦。 雖然我們對這位好友的突然不告而別感到驚慌﹐感到婉惜﹗但我們也為了瓊芳終於得到了身體痛楚難熬的解脫﹐而希望她在天國的一方永遠得到安息﹗
以下是瓊芳臨終前給好友張碧雲的一封信裡提到了她在電療後的感受﹕“鼻炎時好時壞,阿樂改些藥方有些增加份量算是好了七八成。這段時間真的苦不堪言. 雖然療程已完成,但鼻塞,口乾,喉嚨痛﹐講話含糊不清﹐晚間咳嗽﹐一咳嗽就醒順便清理鼻子﹐起碼三次。還有眼睛的疼痛﹐臉部的痳痺呢﹖ 這些是我可以告知﹐ 但我的苦我的痛相信沒人可以體會得到。不知道上天在磨練我或在折磨我呢﹖算了﹐何必去追究呢? 或者有人比我更慘﹐更苦﹖你是第一位朋友我詳述我的苦﹐其他人只是輕描淡寫講一講﹐尤其是家人怕他們擔心。不講我了,好煩﹗”
瓊芳﹐妳有如一盞人間的明燈,照亮了我們每個朋友的心。在每一次的聚會妳都帶給了大家無數的歡笑與開懷喜悅。安息吧﹗好友。妳永遠都活在我們每一個人的心中。
謹以此文禱告瓊芳在天國能早日安息,願永華能節哀保重﹗
樹人迅雷班同哀悼 01/23/2007
瓊芳去世真是一個震憾的消息,相信每一位同學都感到傷心難過,平時嘻哈大笑的瓊芳,竟然一聲不響地永別了,一時很令人難以接受。她在羅省時有和我通了一次電話,告知我她病情相當嚴重,癌細胞己經擴散到其他地方,傳統的治療已不能見效,而需要另類治療。談話中仍顯得十分樂觀及堅強,還幽默地描述她拍照時如何巧妙地擺甫士,讓人察覺不到她另一邊眼睛的不正常。
我一直為她擔憂,其實在聖誕節我最想祝福的人是瓊芳,只是不方便擺在網上,也讓麗娥先做了,後來我將祝福直接寄給她。最近我己有些憂慮,因為很久沒有回音,不像她的性格,因她是很熱情回應朋友的人,我有想到要和她通電話,年紀大了,做事總是慢幾拍,現在也覺得很遺憾。還有一件很可惜的事,是她去年經港原想和我見面,只是忘了帶我的聯絡資料,沒有進行,失了一次重聚的機會,從此天人兩隔。
乘同班車的同學提早下車,我相信你們每一個人都感到十分難過,也感到死亡原來是如此接近,生老病死這是人生所要面對的,讓我彼此安慰扶持,做好我們仍在世上的責任。
分別太久了,我對瓊芳的家人一無認識,你們有誰較接近的,請給她家人安慰及協助,並代我問候。
念瓊芳--振翔於香港 01/24/2007
祝福瓊芳
你是我最想祝福的同學,那天在電話中告知身染頑疾,正在治療中,我感到很難過,並不是因它難醫治,而是感到你要面對的辛苦過程。
雖然你用了樂觀的語氣,還瀟洒地形容自己如何擺甫士,讓人不能察覺你的眼睛的異樣,我還是感到你那份無奈。
最近的醫療的進展如何,用另類療法的阿樂能改善你的情況嗎?
我們除了關心,什麼也幫不了,還是要靠你自己的鬥志,在生活方面下功夫,配合醫生、藥物,戰勝病魔。我在困境的時候常記起卡耐基的一條公式:
1.面對現實
2.最壞打算
3.最好做法。
如何對未來全無把握,那就讓自己現在過好日子,什麼想做的趕快去做。
每次看到你給同學的電郵,十分開心,總是不失老夫子本色,盡攪笑能事。我發覺你的文章自然流暢,沒有刻意雕琢,旨在攪笑抵死。
我有時仍未能拋下老師包袱,其實現在我像你們的朋友多些,你們經過這麼多年的學習及磨練,很多要比我更有學識(不是自以為是或自私的教師,應以學生青出於藍勝於藍為榮)。
很難完全感受當事人的真正感受,如有需要,我最好還是作為一位聆聽者。
振翔於零六年聖誕前
Hi Pam:
This is the last email that Theresa read from me yesterday.
Van
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Hi Theresa:
I got a message from liana and asked about you. then during our chat, Pam is asking you too. Well, too many people concerned about you. I told them you are in "冬眠" right now. I think after the rest, you will be refresh and be good.
Just to say hello, take care. Oh, I just got back from LA on Sunday.
Love,
Van 01/23/2007
Hi! Van
This is my first email to your new email address. Yahoo mail makes it easy to read Chinese characters. Next time you can write me an English one and I can write you a Chinese one. I can even mix with both languages. I want to keep learning English but since my English is limited, if I can't write something in English then I can use Chinese. Usually, I use Traditional Big 5. so you can go to "View" then "Encoding" and select it. Let's try now
我的療程已完成,但體質依然薄弱無力因輻射還在作崇. 醫生說一般要六個星期才能回復但也耍以個人的體能而定 . 先試用兩种文字寫看有什麼問題. 我要休息, 等把病養好再與你長聊. 明天去見阿樂,在他要回香港一個月見見他.
Bye!
瓊芳 01/12/2007
Dear Van,
I drop my tears while reading your writing, your words reflex all of our thinking to Theresa, yes she is extraordinary brave to face her fate.
Monday night, Xiao Mei & I went to Si Go (her borther)'s house to ask him to buy a wreath for us to send on her funeral. Si Go also said that, he is so sorry not to know his sister well and he is moved to find out Theresa has so many good friends. Theresa's life is too short, anyway it's meaningful to her and to all of her friends.
Quynh from Viet Nam 01/30/2007
I am going to sing happy birthday to one of my girlfriend at 3:00 break, at the same time knowing some one is away from this world, that is so strange!
I feel so sad after talking to you, I can't stop having red eyes. she was some one I knew through my childhood and always remembered her as sister #12. May she be in a better place.
In a way, we feel cheated that her life is taken away too sudden. In a sudden, we feel no more pain for her.
Are you OK? Please send my regards and condolence to her family. Call me if you want to talk.
Cyndee Ullom (Truong Bich Phung) 01/23/2007
感謝上蒼賜給我這麼多的友愛---- 瓊芳的心底話。。。
曙姮
你打電話來時我正在房裡作休,沒即時接听不好意思.本想回撥給你但聲音遝沙啞所以先寄email給你.等我聲音恢復正常再與你聊.謝謝你的關心我還好只是累一點. 這次的聚會很開心.見到好多卅十幾年來未曾碰過面的同學.相信炳光己將那天的情況報道給你听了吧!
我們這班同學很可愛又通情又細心.知道我剛從旅遊回來會有時差問題啦也會很疲倦就誏我好好的休息,養足精神來應付聚會,所以不敢打擾我.但韶華還是不放心親自跑到我姐姐的店鋪問我怎樣.你看;她多可愛.誰知我自已不爭氣在party的那天聲音沙啞無聲.氣得我半死滿肚子的話要說,說不得慘過啞子吃黃蓮.好笑的是,每次我一開口韶華就用眼神釘住我,那我只好听話乖乖地把嘴閉起來.還有陳蓮,受我先生所托緊身護架我扶我.(因我視力有問題)秀蘋,舜貞在我左右看我有何需要.我可要感謝慧屏因為我她要放棄週末的天倫樂搭了6個小時的車程來与我們迅雷班相聚太偉大了怎樣回報呢?以身相許,廢話!這是不可能的事(一笑) 還有春江呢?還有太多太多人我要感激了總之每位同學對我都很關心及照顧.麗娥還想請假陪我,我謝絕了工作要緊.下班後她及炳光夫婦陪我.炳光是樹人男同學中我最熟絡的一位.他認識我先生的弟弟.在1996年他們夫婦到溫哥華找我,就由那次開始我們變成好朋友他從來不當我是女人我也不當他是男人他當我是兄弟,我當他是姐妹.所以每次我到L.A我不會放過他,同樣當他來溫哥華也不會放過我.你說這是不是孽緣呢? Just joking. 他的太太-淑卿;很好玩, 健談又隨和是非常 easy going 的人有機會來 L.A 認認識她這個人.
曙姮;藉此email,將我所感動的所感觸的向你簡略述說也想誏同學們能體會到我內心的感受与感激
再聊! 再見! 祝好!
我的標點附號很亂那只好用你們的智慧去理解我的表達啦! 見諒
瓊芳草 10/21/2006
曙姮, 妳好!
如果妳站在我面前,我會大大力擁抱妳感謝妳,時時刻刻都掛念我 還有幾天一家人去旅遊應該很忙,但妳還不忘的慰問我,關懷我,叮嚀我! 此情此意教我如何回報 呢? 妳放心好了!聽妳的話, 多休息,把病養好等妳回來我們可以痛痛快快的聊!
祝妳一家人" 開開心心的享受每一天的旅程,拍多一點照片與我們分享.
主要還是安全第一."
旅遊愉快! Have a nice trip,! Be Safe!
love
瓊芳 12/23/2006
曙姮, 妳好!
我又錯過你的電話. 我的療程已完成了. 照醫生說完成後接著來的兩星期輻射的副作用會是更差,然後需要六個星期才慢慢回復,但也要以個人的体質而定.那輻射弄得你很辛苦, 鼻子在發炎又塞,喉嚨痛口又乾,晚間又咳嗽.....因頭部是神經系統最稠密的地方所以弄到你的五官都受損,不知上天是不是在磨練我呢?總之苦不堪言.還是不要談我,很煩.
回來了,玩得開心嗎? 去很多國家? 等分享你的照片. 相信你們編輯組會很忙.由舊的綱頁轉移去新的網頁. 辛苦你們,幫不上忙,慚愧. 曙姮; 知道你關心我,也很想跟你聊,但我現在的情況是極少接聽電話,希望你明白.
祝好!
友 瓊芳 01/12/2007
麗娥,曙姮,韶華,陳蓮,慧屏:
今天如不打開信箱,差一點變成賴帳貓, 支票己寄出. 從十一月底就開始療程.一至五一連四個星期.由於兩年多來經 33 次的化療身体很多機能給破壞,削弱了体力,這趟的的電療很辛苦,疲憊不堪整天昏頭昏腦對任何事都提不起勁對週遭事物毫不在於真的苦不堪言.不要為我擔心,但可以關心!
曙姮,麗娥謝謝你的來電與email 問候,恕未曾回覆.接著兩個星期的電療體會更弱越多次電療體能越低.趁今精神稍好就給大家email告知我的現狀.也曉得大家很關心我很愛我,那可要更愛自己.別為我擔心. 等我療程完成精神好了再與你們長聊.
藉此email 預祝: 韶華 17年,慧屏 19 年 結婚紀念日:
幸福! 快樂! 細水長流, 執子之手與子皆老 !
祝 大家 : 聖誕快樂, 一家樂融融!
瓊芳

Re: It is me....... Long time no see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hi My Dear friend Pam
Are you happy to hear from me? Say yes please. We didn’t email each other for such a long time. Sorry! How are you? How is everything? I know, you are very busy.
In the last 4 months I have been isolated from the world, I have been struggling with my chemo side effects. I didn't answer any calls. Ah-Wah answered all the phone calls. I didn’t want to talk , I didn’t want to open my mouth. My mouth is extremely dry. At night I woke up every single hour to drink some water. I couldn't sleep. I didn’t want to eat anything at all, everything tasted so weird even water, but I have to and I was always short of breath. This time chemo was miserable. It was a nightmare for me. Anyway, it's over, and I am through with it.
The MRI on Mar/23 showed the tumor to still there. The size didn’t change. I am supposed to have 4 more treatments, but I decided to stop. I had been in Chemo since my cancer showed up again. It’s been 19 months and they tried 3 kinds of different drugs, but it didn’t help . At the beginning the Doctor told me because of the position of my tumor and it is the 4th stage, it can't be cured. He just tried to control the growth of it, that is, not let it gets any bigger or spread. I had no other choices, so I am starting to look for alternative medicine so now I lay all my hope in Ah- Lok, meditation, qi gong music ( life of music ) and Longevitology(healing touch ) .I don't expect any miracles to happen. But at least I feel good, sleep well and comfortable right now. May be you haven't heard of this before, I will send the qi gong music CD and all the information I have.
Last Christmas Van came to Vancouver and spent a few days with me . Next two days after she left, I suddenly felt my left cheek stiffen and it was hard to swallow food. On the same day a friend called from Calgary ( the city I used to live in before I moved to Vancouver ) we haven’t contacted each other for a long time since I moved to Vancouver . He said he heard about my health condition so he wanted to tell me about the Longevitology and about his wife, brother and brother in- law's case. So Ah-Wah went on the internet to find all the information about Longevitology. Fortunately in Vancouver they have a center. It is a non profit community. On Jan/3 I started and we went there 5 times a week. Volunteers will import their energy or power to your body. (We are currently still attending that). The people who import energy to others must have their Chakras channels open by the teacher/ Master ( The Master come from Taiwan.) In last week of March the master came to Vancouver. They had 6 days of classes and opened Chakras. So we attended classes and had our Chakras opened. Since then at home Ah-Wah can adjust for me and I can adjust for him or you can adjust yourself, but the import energy less than others import for you. To keep the Chakras open, you must to do homework (that means you have to meditate everyday.) The research of Western Medical Sciences says that somehow the meditation will help you improve your health. Pam if you have time tries to meditate. You can meditate in a car or any place while you are waiting for someone. Not much time is required as long as in that moment you keep your mind and heart quiet. They have adjustment centers in Seattle ( Vietnamese ), L..A ,Texas and a lot of cities too. I told My Tran and Tran Lein about this too, because she has some health problems too.
On Jan/ 11 I started the first chemo after 4 months. It was amazing, my blood tests have been , steadily rising, and is very close to the normal standards. Even after 10 times of chemo they were the same result .normally the more you have chemo the lower the level of blood cells you have. So the nurse said it is magic, keep up what you’re eating habits and everything you've been doing during this time. I took all the blood test records and compared them with the tests after doing healing touch. It is unbelievable higher then all the before-blood test records. It has given me a lot of confidence.
Here is my updated daily life. I wake up around 6:30 am turn on qi gong music and meditate about half an hour after, I do Longevitology for about one hour and half. I do the same routine at night time before I sleep. Anytime, anywhere you can do it! Only thing it requires you to do is to keep your mind empty and your heart is peaceful. I like it because it doesn't have any complicated rules. The more you do it the better you get. You guys are busy at work and I am busy for meditation and Chakras adjustment.
This is the longest English email I have never written before. I wrote it a little by little. It took me a few days to finish it.
If you want to know more detail about these . The website is below.
http://www.longevitology.idv.tw/lf00.htm
http://public-long.myweb.hinet.net/magazine/season/m30.htm
http://www.musicqigong.com/1newfrontpage/finkler1.htm
See you !!! And have a nice day
Love and miss you
Theresa 04/26/2006
慧屏﹕這一年來很感幸運能與你分享在追夢年華所蘊釀很多很多的愛與夢。這本冊子雖不值錢﹐但希望它能珍藏你的愛﹐你的夢。算是我小小的心意。瓊芳 12/25/2005
送別瓊芳。。。安息吧﹐好友﹗
由西雅圖回來﹐頭腦一直昏昏沉沉。 瓊芳的葬禮簡單但不失溫馨。男女方的家屬和數十位鳴遠同窗都齊聚在禮堂給瓊芳送別。還有瓊芳生前的一班“長生”團友也特地趕來為瓊芳唸了一個鐘頭的佛經。場面很和祥端莊。樹人迅雷班送的花圈和鳴遠同學的“Love”花圈都擺在靈前。劉穆老師還特地寫了一張哀聯也擺在大堂上。瓊芳生前好友張碧雲也發表了一篇感人心扉的致詞。敘說了瓊芳生前的一些心底話﹐碧雲說了﹕瓊芳和永華就好像“火星撞地球”﹐雖然倆個偶爾也會有口角之爭﹐但瓊芳每次都對碧雲說是她前世修來的福氣才會碰上這麼難得的“好老公”。瓊芳還說她不希望現在就離開﹐要走也要等到小女兒兩年後大學畢了業才安心的走。對自己小孩的愛也表露無遺﹗碧雲還說瓊芳會選日子﹐她逝世的那一天剛好是“自由日”123(01/23)讓長年累月受盡折磨的身心疲勞得以解脫﹐得以自由。。。碧雲又說﹕瓊芳是那種不卑不亢﹐不偏不移﹐不虛不假﹐愛護家人,朋友,永遠都將她最好的一面呈現給大家的人。所以到了後期左眼受損﹐每次拍照她都以右眼面對鏡頭。讓大家只看到她美麗的一面。 瓊芳對朋友的真摯和熱情讓她獲得了許許多多的友情﹐她一直對碧雲說為什么她一生都是那麼的“窮”﹖碧雲回答說﹕“妳一點都不窮﹐妳擁有了世上最珍貴的友情。”真的﹐無可否認愛護瓊芳的朋友數不勝數。那天來參加葬禮的朋友有遠至澳洲的。大家都帶著沉痛的心情專程來送她一程﹐我們都希望瓊芳路上好走﹐雖然心裡有著百般的傷心和不捨得﹐大家都很勇敢的不讓眼淚往外流﹐輕輕鬆鬆的送這位好友上路。第二天中午火葬後將骨灰裝在一個精緻的小木盒裡下葬﹐也燒了好多金銀元寶讓她在路上不用發愁。安息吧﹐瓊芳﹗妳永遠都活在我們的心底裡。。。
慧屏 02/06/2007 San Jose
追憶妳會是溢滿幸福的緬懷.
我們永遠愛妳...懷念妳....
張瑞娜 02/07/2007 San Jose
永華﹕
今天無意中看到了這一篇文章﹐覺得很適合你的處境﹐希望你能領會到它的意義﹐而從沉痛的悲傷裡勇敢的站起來; 走出哀傷的往事﹐張開眼睛看看周遭的世界﹐體會一下人世間的溫情。相信瓊芳留給你的不只是她的兩億--- 記憶與回憶。她留給你和兩個女兒的還有數不盡的美好的回憶。。。
慧屏 02/27/2007
遺產~~~一億一千萬
中年喪偶是件難以忍受的痛,辦完喪事後大半年了,我都沒有辦法從悲慟中平復,儘管親朋好友催促我趕快看看他的遺囑,早日料理好他的遺產,我始終不肯去打開那個保險箱,保險箱裡不只是他的最後心願,也有我們共同珍藏的心愛寶物,我們的結婚證書,我們的定情之物,婚後每個結婚紀念日都買一個兩人都看中意的戒指,那些,讓我會更加睹物生情,不捨他的體貼、溫柔、幽默、豁達,任我自己沉浸在悲傷中,整天以淚洗面,不肯出門。
婆婆看不過去,要我振作起來,她說國稅局來催過很多次,要把財產做個什麼結案的,我只好會同律師一起打開保險箱,除了交代的非常仔細的遺囑之外,他還留了一個署名愛妻親啟的卡片,我好奇的展開來讀:原來,他留給我一個網路笑話:
「一個寡婦向朋友哭訴,老公去世之後什麼也沒留給她,只留給她兩億三千萬!友人充滿疑惑又非常羨慕的問她:你老公這麼好,妳該很滿足,日子也該很好過啊!喔!不!寡婦回答,我先生給我的兩億是:回憶和失意。他的三千萬則是一、千萬要照顧好小孩,二、千萬得孝順公婆,三、千萬別改嫁。」笑話後面,他繼續寫著:我比較窮,我只能給你一億一千萬,一億當然是我們美好的回憶,一千萬則是千萬要忘記傷痛,快樂起來,妳會怪我給的太少,而不肯要這份遺產嗎?
看了卡片,我在他死後第一次破涕為笑,卻忍不住勾出他更多的好,我在婆婆面前哭哭笑笑,終於擦乾了眼淚,牽起婆婆的手,告訴她,我已經準備好今後一定要振作起來,好好花他這筆遺產,一億一千萬,我怎麼會嫌少呢?
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